Home Tour

At the end of June, with COVID-19 changing how people live and work at home, my fiancé and I left our 615 square foot city apartment for something closer to nature and nearly three times larger. In our new space, we have ample room for two people to work in separate areas, two staircases for the cat to thunder up and down, and a living/dining/kitchen area we’ve had great fun decorating with midcentury influences.

Click the carousel below to scroll through our setup so far:

Select decor sources:

• Seattle map: Burnt Sugar, Fremont store

• Candle hurricane (on dining table): Crate and Barrel

• Striped pillows & couch: CB2

• Lamp: Article

• Matte black mug: Ember

• Kitchen runner: Ruggable

Other pieces come from a range of places, but most reliably Amazon (everything from books to a faux plant), Williams Sonoma, and Crate and Barrel.

Seattle Solitude

It’s been a weird few weeks of profound solitude in Seattle. But the sounds of the city are slowly flooding back: the rush of traffic, the occasional siren, screeching tires, people chattering on sidewalks.

We’ve been passing some of our time taking slow, aimless walks in neighborhoods, encountering sculptures, rose gardens, and surprise views of the Space Needle. More commonly, though, we’ve been marathoning more HBO & Netflix than anyone has any business doing. (Watch Big Little Lies and Dead To Me. Right away.)

Today a number of Washington counties were approved to move to phase 2 of reopening operations. Recovery is underway but I’m of the view that we are so much better off safe than sorry. Can’t go wrong with an abundance of caution.

Still.

Cat bedding by Plow & Hearth, matte finish water bottle by S'Well, lights by Urban Outfitters.

Sometimes when I lie awake into the early hours of the morning, I like to think about all the rooms I have ever temporarily thought of as home.

As a young adult -  especially in college, the memory of which is still fresh in my mind - one can feel uncomfortably itinerant. The four walls of your childhood room suddenly seem too close together, and the shelves upon shelves of YA books and stuffed animals so cloyingly juvenile. You're Grown Up now, after all - and this is not home any longer.

A handful of dorm rooms serve as temporary home bases: different residential halls, each with their own pitfalls (Edwards so cramped and musty, Campbell with those charming centipedes), and having to move in and out at the end and beginning of each oppressively hot summer. Each May I tore myself away from a small single bedroom I'd only just become accustomed to, and with choked back, purposeful melancholy, packed and stored my things, hoping desperately that next year's lottery-won room would measure up. Then, in September, I painstakingly arranged all my unpacked, familiar objects (rainbow alarm clock, stand-up fan, posters and odds & ends) in exactly the same places relative to each other. When finished, nothing would seem quite right. And I would begin the school year with a sense of disjointedness and dissonance.

Traveling was the hardest and the loneliest. If I think back to New York City in 2012, the bottom of my stomach drops away and I remember dinners eaten alone and sleepless nights on a fourteenth floor watching traffic come in from the Williamsburg Bridge. I think of a bare-bones room with a microwave and linoleum floor and a loud shared bathroom, and of my rickety top bunk that stood too near the ceiling. And even lonelier was London, my narrow oblong place with a drippy sink and a drafty window facing a row of brown Edwardian apartments and their skeletal rooftop antennae. It was never warm in that room, and I spent most nights bundled in a down duvet with a mug of hot water from the hallway bathroom.

Each room I have lived in, I have grown to love, and stayed in each for too short a time. I feel as though I have left little pieces of myself here and there - in all my tiny Princeton singles overlooking green yards, in my Lower East Side building, in the heart of Bloomsbury, and up four flights of ancient stairs in Oxford. I feel stretched thin - too much of me spent loving too many lost, transient spaces.

When I moved into my current apartment I did not expect it to be for more than ten months. But it has been 23 months and counting, the longest time in recent memory that I have ever lived anywhere - that I have ever stayed still - and parts of me are creeping into the place, lending it a domestic warmth I'd been afraid to cultivate until now. A pitcher here, a placemat there, and piles of books on every horizontal surface. 

I am beginning to stay still, and for now I prefer it - a kind of peace.